"Just One Sip"

Somehow even with all my struggles to leave the past behind and move on with my life.  The smallest sign of hope lead me spiraling back into the wrong direction.  I was life an alcoholic...to me "just one sip" was never just that when it came to Alex.  I had been actually been doing quite well, going on dates, spending time with family, getting my school work done, and then when I finally forgot about him for a second he decided to send me a friend request on facebook.  That triggering a string of emotions I had done my best to try to leave behind.  I will just send him on text saying "Happy thanksgiving"  I said trying to convince myself that the bullshit I was saying was actually true.  But unlike every other time, one text turned into a 45 minute conversation that ended with me feeling hopeful that Alex and I might just work out.